Monthly Archives: November 2008
the first snow
Today, the first snow has fallen. Though, I expected it, it brings a note of sadness. I still feel happy, working on my film, but kind of have the feeling of the coming depression. I can hear the barking of the black dogs, very distantly…
I’m exhausted. I hardly sleep. In between I keep working, editing the film. Just finished the first title. Free fall is up now. Then I have 2 more next week and I’ve done half the second part…will stop and return to the sound again.
the film is going well
I feel happy. Inspired. I work. I think about her, and this make me feel warm…The anger from yesterday is gone. I don’t hate anymore. There is even very tiny sun, coming out of the clouds.
Incredibly…my medication that I started in august seems to really be
helping. Normally when I am losing this much sleep, I get quite impatient
and angry. I have not felt that anger explosion since since I’ve been on
these pills. It feels good. I think it also helped me cut things off with
her. I just didn’t need it anymore.
